Day by day

So it’s been a while since I updated this. I guess my plan hasn’t gone well. I’ve been utterly exhausted, but now I have something to point to.

Last March, I got sick, and I got tired, and my energy never returned. I stopped writing. I stopped cleaning house. I have been making it to work, but as soon as I get home I go straight to bed. If I do a hike or go out with friends one day, I spend hours the next day unable to move.

I finally went to the doctor, and my labs show my body has some inflammation and some autoimmune markers. On one hand, it was nice to know it wasn’t all in my head. On the other hand, I still have no idea what’s wrong. 

So this is my update. I have lots of outlines for things to write here, but I have been lacking the energy to write them. I’m still hopeful I will get around to them. But I’m taking some time back. I’m not doing National Novel Writing Month this year, and I also skipped my October microfiction challenge I do each year.

I’m still trying to figure out how to “Become SoCal”, but without energy to go out it’s been hard. It’s been depressing. I’ve been riding the struggle bus. I hope soon I will get some answers and some interventions so I can get back to doing the things I enjoy. I’m trying to get there.

This whole post is kinda depressing, so here’s a picture from a fun hike I did recently that I don’t have the energy to write up right now.